Those were college days. I had a beautiful friend who was most popular in college for her looks and all-round personality. I felt privileged that she approached me for friendship which I accepted as an honour. We were like a beautiful pair of earrings.....always seen together. 

A few days into our friendship, as the annual day approached, she did not have time to connect with me. I accepted that she is busy and visited her during her rehearsals. She would just waive at me but couldn't come up to me for a few words. Yet I kept doing what I did because it gave me happiness. After the annual day, I waited for her so that we could go home together but even after seeing me she walked away with another group of friends.  She was a different person now. After the annual day, she only spoke about herself and her experiences and was hardly interested in what I had to say

There was a play in college and she requested me to act in it. I told her that I had tremendous stage fear and I wouldn't be able to do it. It is then she told me that one particular girl wanted to play the role and she didn't want her in the play. But I was firm. 

On that day I realised that her friendship for me wasn't genuine and she only needed people to gratify her needs or ego. She needed pillows which she could punch after having dropped tears on them.

I decided to take charge of myself and not be emotionally invested in someone to whom I didn't mean anything. Perhaps she had all of it and she just wanted me as an add on. The day I understood this I realised that I stuck with her through her foul mood as much as with her smile but it was never enough for her. She hardly paused to acknowledge or value my efforts. That was the bitter end of it from my side. It was difficult but I had to do it to be able to move on in life.

How weird life is. Why do we get so attached to people we meet briefly. Why do we invest our thoughts and efforts in them without knowing them thoroughly....... I guess when the friendship is genuine from our side, we make all efforts to pull through and bear it all.

 It's not the beginning but the journey that counts....if it's not beautiful it's not worth the walk. Like a new notebook which has beautiful handwriting in the beginning and crow feet after use, relationships also see a downturn if we do not look after or care for them. You start taking things for granted, you start assuming things. You do not care to spend time or make that call and the other person suffers for loving and caring for you. 

 Unfortunately, relationships are not the balance sheets, everyone just isn't perfect. But when someone is draining you of your spirit, you just have to move on.....it's not worth for you....

 Think about it.